I will
simply go straight to the point, as I would not want to give very explicit
details about myself. This is for some obvious reasons. My wife is very sharp,
I mean, she is such an intelligent woman and can easily trace this true
confession to me. For the fact that I love her so much, I cannot let a thing
fall in-between us. That is why I have kept this as top-secret till today; but
I will have to let this out of the bag.
I’m not oblivious of the fact that most issues of
this nature are blamed on the men whom most of us see as womanizers; but mine
is a different thing entirely. I’m not a womanizer. I have tried everything
possible to make sure that this girl-my house girl leaves my house, but my wife
will always insist she stays.
I’m a pastor, but I also work as a civil servant. I
would have loved to write further about where I live, but for the same reason
why I can’t mention my name, I can’t tell you where I’m writing from.
This young
lady was brought to my house by my wife sometimes in 2010, and had just
completed her secondary education last year. She is supposed to pick up a form
for her higher education because she is related to my wife; distant relation,
sort of.
Frankly, she has been very good, and has been
taking care of my only daughter since my wife put to bed late last year. Her
presence is a big relief to me and wife because we are both very busy people.
My wife works with a bank, and sometimes come home around 8-9pm.
Lately, this young girl has summoned courage to
seduce me; to be sincere, she is tempting me.
I often return to the house ahead of my wife.
Sometimes, because of hold-up and other issues, I will get in around 5-6pm. She
started by running to embrace me with her transparent-short gown to welcome me
each time I knock, on arrival. I was shocked the very day she did that. I felt
so embarrassed. “Even if I had traveled to space…hun! This one is just too
much… hun!” I soliloquized in my bedroom after she had dropped my office bag
and ran out to get my food. This continued for 3 weeks. Sometimes, her boobs
will just slip out of her ‘top’ and she will simply apologize. My wife has
never met her on that gown as she wears another cloth when it’s almost time for
my wife to return. I have developed double minds about her. I have had
different evil thoughts since this whole thing started. The one that happened
last was the way she sat facing me, with her legs wide opened. I left the food
that I was eating and walked to the bathroom to do nothing in particular. I had
thought she would adjust as soon as I returned, but she didn’t budge. I think I
fell into her trap finally that day. I almost had it with her when I grabbed
her, and she jumped at me. We started that regrettable romance before God
intervened with the sharp cry of my baby. That was what saved the day.
The next day, I had told my wife that we should
send her away, but she vehemently refused to accept my suggestion. She had
asked me to give some reasons why we should send her away, and I had told her
that she was getting so stubborn and lazy; hence, she is as good as no
House-help.
My wife who claimed she had never experienced that
had accused me of formulating things against the lady. She told me that I wanted
her out of the house because I had seen that she will soon secure admission
into the higher institution, and I will soon begin to pay for her school fees.
I couldn’t tell her the truth, because something tells me it will be
disastrous. I just felt I could handle the matter in the most professional way.
But right now, things have gone out of hands since the past 2 weeks. I have
done virtually everything that can be considered dirty with her except that I
have not done it with her yet. What’s keeping me from doing it is my conscience
and for the fact that I can’t do that in my matrimonial home.
That sin will be so grievous, I know. She had asked
me repeatedly last week if she can meet me in any of the hotels around town
this weekend since my wife will be around then. She has just Saturday and
Sunday to take care of her hair and visit friends, and she wants to use that
opportunity to have me all to herself. Now, I’m contemplating on this issue.
All I need is your advice; Saturday is just 5 days from today, and I can’t make
up my mind on what to do. I love my wife, but I think I’m becoming so foolish
in the name of being faithful. Please, tell me; should I do it or not? It has
gotten to the level where I cannot tell my wife the truth because she won’t
even believe, since I had told her a different story before. She will see it as
blackmail. Your reaction will either encourage me or discourage me, even though
my mind beats faster, and something tells me to do it. Should I?
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